I really do hate this game

Julie asked me for the link to my blog so I thought, I may as well post a blog. I would really rather be day drinking, but my two regular choices are currently unavailable. Why the title of this post. I hate poker. It is such a cruel game. In January and February I was running really well and playing well. The wheels have come off. I cannot seem to win a race and my draws are not getting there. This in turn is leading to horrid play by me. I have been working really hard on fixing that and I have been marginally successful at correcting my bad play.

I made a deal with myself that if I do not win a certain amount by a certain date, I will take a break. I know, it is one long session and you cannot look at short term variance blah blah blah. To me it is the only motivation that is working. The thought of taking a month off of poker does not sit well with me at all, so I have been much more focused and have worked really hard on correcting my bad play.

I have been playing at Nautica fairly regularly lately. If that doesn't turn things around nothing will. The people are horrid. (Even worse than me on my worst day) I was playing there on Tuesday and had the following situations occur: I had about 275 in front of me. I was in the small blind. A guy limped for $2 from middle position. A very tight guy in late position raised to $12. (Note this is the first hand he raised in the 2 hours I was there. I look down at KK. I am a little worried that tight guys has AA, but I need to three bet to get heads up with this guy. I make is $32. ( I had been playing very snug) The big blind folds but the limper cold calls $30 more. I guess if it is good for $2, it is good for $32. Tight player just smooth calls the extra $20. I was hoping he would 4 bet as he only had $115. Flop is K104 rainbow. Normally I would always c-bet here, but these guys don't were not paying enough attention so I was not worried about them and I checked. Lets pretend we are afraid of the K. Limper bets $35. Tight guy calls. I call. Turn is the 8 of spades, putting two spades on board. I check. Limper bets $75, tight guy folds. I think for a minute and I go all in. I had another $125. He gets a sick look on his face and says... I have two pair I have to call you. He moves a stack of chips forward to call. I re-look and the board and say, if you have two pair you are drawing dead and I flip over my hand. I did not embarrass the guy and ask to see his cards, but WHAT HAND MAKES TWO PAIR ON THAT BOARD THAT YOU CALL A RAISE AND A RERAISE WITH???? K10? K8? 810? Really? Thank you very much for the donation. It is very much appreciated. As he is leaving the table with his late $20 or so he says to his buddy "That is the way things have been going for me lately," I want to respond, of course it is, you called $30 cold with junk against 2 tight players. Of course I said nothing other than bad luck there. The second hand I lost about $100 on, but I could have gone broke and I didn't so I was happy about it. Tight guy from prior hand limps along with several other limpers. I make it $16 from the button with QQ. 5 people call the $16. Flop is J94 with two diamonds. I had the Q of diamonds Tight guy bets out $35. I really wanted to raise here, but something stopped me. Not sure what, just a gut reaction. After I just called, I whispered to Ang, I really think I should have raised here. Something told me not to. Two or three people called the $35 behind me. Turn is the A of diamonds. Now I am concerned about the A and the diamond. Tight guy bets $50. I don't feel I can fold here. I cannot raise, but I cannot fold. I call as do two people behind me. River is blank card. It gets checked to me. For about one second I thought about betting, but I was positive I was beat and 60% sure that I would get called in at least one spot. I checked. Tight guy turns over aj for top two pair and takes down the nice sized pot. After watching him for the rest of the night I am POSITIVE that he would not have folded top pair and top kicker if I raised him on the flop. He is never folding the turn. So the hand could have cost me a lot more than it did. I would like some opinions on if I made the right move just calling the flop and did I make the right move calling the turn. I will explain my reasoning another day.

Playing Julie's tournament tonight and I really need to get off the snide. I have not cashed in the last eight tournaments that I have played in. That is not acceptable to me because the reason I am not cashing is not bad luck it is HORRID play. Also, I am letting one or two people and their bs tilt me and making me play even worse. Going to try and play smart tonight, focus and not let stupid things bother me. Good Luck Me.